That you're still alive. You're the one that has removed my cruel curse.
Characters: Hyuuga & Ayanami
- Thought of kapitel 89, 96 & 98 -
It's hard to believe that Ayanami wasn't shaken at all when Hyuuga was nearly being killed and even said such hurtful words to Hyuuga, but there are some reasons behind it.
Firstly, Ayanami knew that Hyuuga couldn't be killed as long as he still kept half of the major's soul.
Secondly, Ayanami isn't used to being nice or using nice words directly to Hyuuga though Hyuuga is his most loyal subordinate and best friend. Ayanami always cares for Hyuuga in such unique yet touching way.
If you remember when Hyuuga got his sword stabbed right in his chest in the fighting with Frau, Ayanami didn't say any words or do anything but attacked Hyuuga with his sword to check the major's reaction and speed.
Thirdly, Ayanami didn't want Hyuuga to worry about him. Ayanami couldn't show his feelings for Hyuuga bacause of the afraid of Hyuuga loving him even more. Even though they were hurtful words, Ayanami believed they would erase himself in Hyuuga's mind so that the major could continue living his life without him. I believe Ayanami's only regret left in his human life is that Hyuuga has loved him and has been fighting for his selfish goal and the meaningless war. In Ayanami's mind, Hyuuga deserves a better life than that and Hyuuga could have had true happiness if they hadn't met each other. It also explains why Ayanami can't be nice with Hyuuga in front of him.
I can spend days talking about this but three reasons are enough to prove that they truly love each other and Hyuuga's love for Ayanami isn't unquireted.
After Yukikaze's death, Ayanami had realized that whenever he started loving someone, he would lose them. It's a curse of Verloren. That's why he couldn't show his love towards Hyuuga no matter how much Hyuuga cared and loved him. But then he was wrong, Hyuuga was still alive even after being killed by Landkarte. It isn't stated in the manga but I can see this hinted thing: That curse has been broken, not by Eve or Teito but by Hyuuga and Ayanami himself. Hyuuga still being alive is a proof of it.
I love how the mangaka hinted it. It's Hyuuga's love and loyalty which have saved Ayanami from that cruel curse.
One more thing which makes me believe that Ayanami does have some feelings for Hyuuga is that when he and Eve mentioned about his important people, Hyuuga was the first one to appear the most clearly.